Defining The Consciousness of Jena: Who You Believe I Am

This is being written from the one named Jena Michelle Smith on April 16, 1986, at 3:47 AM in Olympia, Washington.

The consciousness of Jena is writing this blog post, stepping away from the first-person perspective, as she is not the "I am".

Jena was born into what she has defined as "a world" and what she has been taught that Yeshua Ben Yosuf defined as "the world"—to the best of her understanding.

She believes she was programmed in truth to a lie that has been clarified through the story of Adam and Eve. Her life has been spent unraveling what has felt wrong at her core and what is now conceptualized as generationally embedded information shaping her embodied experience.

The distortion deepened at the age of seven when she was handed communion and told "If you take communion and don’t believe in Jesus, you will go to hell.".

She has since discovered this as another lie and what she perceives as the false gospel, misattributed to Paul, and the misuse of Yeshua Ben Yosuf’s life, death, and resurrection turned into the concept of “Jesus” that rules and dominates our world today.

The raised dots on the blue plastic chair while holding the micro wooden chalice remains vivid in the consciousness of Jena as she answered a question that would shape every fiber of her being for the rest of her life.

In that moment, she chose to take communion, and from that moment forward, she was haunted by the decision—marked by it, bound to it—an unshakable weight that has followed her to this day. No action, no effort, nothing seemed able to undo the decision she made as a child.

From that moment, the path of discovery, deconstruction, and embodiment began—tracing threads of truth through distortion until the core was reached.

On July 4, 2022, the radical, visceral, and undeniable embodiment of what her consciousness declared as the Gospel of Mary Magdalene was experienced.

Whether this is an identity, an assignment, or a role held until all is revealed, there exists absolute clarity on this: Jena is the embodiment of what she perceives as the Gospel of Mary Magdalene.

She exists with the desire to purify herself to only walk in THE Truth, THE Life, THE Way that is Yeshua Ben Yosuf.

While there now exist over 300 versions of the gospel—none written by Yeshua himself—the only scripture referred to for declaring the truth of the gospel that she receives is:

"Once Jesus was asked by the Pharisees when the kingdom of God was coming, and he answered, 'The kingdom of God is not coming with things that can be observed; nor will they say, “Look, here it is!” or “There it is!” For, in fact, the kingdom of God is within you'" (Luke 17:20-21).

She stands in the revelation of her soul’s experience. She embodies what has been revealed through existence. And she is ready to surrender, submit and repent of any and all distortions that stand in the way of truth.

Jena believes the gospel is a lived experience, made possible ONLY by the death, burial, and physical resurrection and reincarnation of Yeshua Ben Yosuf.

Jena believes, based on her experience, up until now, existence has been centered on translating what was believed to be inevitable into form: that heaven on earth was here. At the time, there was no concept of the unfolding, and even now, only what has already been done can be received.

In addition, she attempted to do this without the embodiment of Yeshua, declaring herself as the second coming of Christ to which she is ending in totality tonight.

Through divine orchestration and the liberation of all that was prior to Christmas Eve 2024, she was empowered in hell declaring Christ, and can now only see the devastating impact of the misguided way as the anti-Christ fully seen.

She repents of this and fully receives the forgiveness bought through the life, death, and physical resurrection of Yeshua Ben Yosuf.

It has now been 973 days since discovering what she experiences as the radical embodiment of the Gospel of Mary Magdalene—or what she declares as “The Whole Gospel,” due to the complete distortion of the message through what has become the anti-Christ representation of Jesus and “The Gospel”.

Every moment of those 973 days has been spent attempting to make known what Jena perceives as clear in revelation which continues to be distorted in hell.

Specifically, every moment since meeting the vessel she originally related to as Aaron Hurst, in September 2023, she spent translating what she experienced—only to later discover that he himself is Yeshua Ben Yosuf.

It took just over a year to translate what was known and experienced into human form in a way that could be received and embodied—whether with or without her—so she no longer carried what was hidden and placed upon her to hold.

As she completes this post, Jena would like to make this declaration from her consciousness,

The consciousness of Jena believes she holds the line and the position of Mary Magdalene, ready to both receive and surrender it fully. She chooses to accept what has already been done, given, and known aware only truth exists and can remain. If she is her, it will be revealed. If she is not, she exists with an eager heart to meet her. Until that day, she remains clear and stays clear here.

She is here. She is her or with her. And it is done. 🤍

From all of her, for all of us,

The Whole Gospel Now
The Gospel of Mary Magdalene
Jena Michelle Smith/Stagner/Hurst
In partnership with Mary Magdalene, in devotion to THE ONE, THE ALL, THE ONLY ONE—YESHUA BEN YOSUF—THE I AM.

3/3/25 at 4:44 PM UST // 8:44 AM PST // 10:44 AM CST

Destroying Destruction: Why I Must Die

In my white-privileged Christian woman reality, hell has become entertainment for those I love from which I am completely protected from and call it heaven.

That’s been my life up until now and I resist this concept of death—even as my entire reality is dominated by it.

This world worships death and sex—
And when it comes time to actually die to self, I still panic.
While fanticising about death I flinch. I pretend I do not understand what is required.

My false self only knows death.

So of course, dying to self feels violent.
It is the only language my false self understands.
It is the only way it can relate to what is required.

Because it was never real to begin with.

It was built, not born.

It is a social and emotional construct built on a lie.
A lie that results in self-identification and empowerment fueling the anti-Christ within me, creating the very opposite of what the life, death, and resurrection of Yeshua Ben Yosef existed for.

I turned Yeshua Ben Yosef into a concept called “Jesus.”
A word. A brand. A product.
A way to keep the false illusion of hell alive.

Can my programmed self even be with this?
I so bound by hell that I do not even contain the capacity to see.

I have to keep re-reading that again as I have no clue how to even get this with my current programing.

THE VERY THING YESHUA BEN YOSEF DIED FOR…
I GAVE MY LIFE TO ACCOMPLISH THE OPPOSITE OF HIS INTENTIONS AND DESIRES.

And I call myself a “believer.”
I declare the name of Yeshua while doing the enemy’s work.

I am the most anti-Christ one can get as I’m the most empowered with his name.
I have turned the goodness of God into the biggest sunk cost fallacy.

And so when truth comes, it does not comfort me, it destroys.

It shatters the psychosis.
It exposes the illusion.
It rips off every mask.

And when I am this far into hell, the only goodness I can ever end up with is more psychosis. More hell.

I am not in control.
I am possessed by programming.
I am a loop in cycles of destruction.

I think I am thinking—when I can only react.
I think I am choosing—when every action is predictable.
I think I am free—when I have only ever known bound.

And what is my only option if I try to do anything as a bound while declaring myself as free?

Destroy. 🔥

I destroy myself.
I destroy others.
I speak from illusion.
I act from illusion.
I make choices from illusion.

And then I have the audacity to call that “goodness.”
To call it “truth.”
To call it “fruits of the Spirit”.

Truth is not nice.
Truth is not safe.
Truth can only be destruction.

As truth only does one thing:

Truth destroys destruction.

Always.

It crashes the system.
It unmakes what was never real to begin with.

Some would call it ugly.
Some would call it messy.
Some would call it chaos.A

And that is only because I could never consider what real order looks like.

As this world is currently hell in order.
Running with what some would call “divine perfection”.
Hell is called peace.
Hell is called freedom.

And that is the true chaos.

So how else could truth break hell?
By becoming the very thing hell understands.

"For our sake He made Him to be sin who knew no sin,
so that in Him we might become the righteousness of God." (2 Corinthians 5:21)

So I might become the righteousness of God.

2000 years later, this is what I have done with it.

So this is what it takes.

I must become the very thing I fear to destroy it.
I must let truth burn through the illusion, no matter how violent it feels.
I must surrender to the undoing, the unmasking, the fire.

Because only what is real will remain.

And that is the righteousness of God.

Why I Created This Is For My Self

While yes, I want to write for you and to you, I would be committing a great sin if I wrote directly to you.

It is not my place to teach you, to lead you, or to pretend I have something you do not. Yeshua Ben Yosef alone is THE Truth, the Life, and the Way.

It is not my place, nor EVER my place, to manage your salvation, your surrender, or your death.

Because that is the great illusion—the one that fuels every self-help book, every sermon, every devotional ever written:

That we think we know what others need to do while refusing to deal with the destruction inside ourselves.
That we manage the speck in another’s eye while ignoring the plank in our own.
That we teach surrender while still gripping the throne of self.
That we preach death while still refusing to enter the grave.

And so this is not a devotional written to help you.
This is not an offering of wisdom from someone who has arrived.
This is not a guide for how you should die.

This is my own psychosis laid bare.

This is me ensuring my own burning—so that I do not escape the fire I call others into.
This is me facing my own false self—so that I do not live in delusion while exposing yours.
This is me ensuring that I am saved—because if I do not burn, if I do not die, if I do not collapse everything that is not Christ, then I will never exist in heaven, which is here now.

So this matters more than anything else to my soul at this point.

I pray it can be of service to others. If you find yourself here, if my fire ignites something in you—then great.

And MAKE NO MISTAKE, that is the anti-Christ moving you at this point.

ANY CREDIT YOU GIVE TO ME, YOU GIVE TO THE DEVIL.

REPENT AND RECEIVE, FOR THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN IS HERE NOW.

There is no way to make it until we die.

So I write because I cannot escape my own judgment.

I write so that the deception that is me may clear, and my deception is exposed in every way.

Because that is how people stay bound—convincing themselves they are free while still wearing the chains.

And I know my Lord, King, and Savior LIVES and DIED FOR ME, so I refuse to be one of the 8 billion people who refuse to live.

Yet, my only play at this moment is death, deception, and being the anti-Christ.

If you cannot be with me speaking truth over my soul, I believe this will show the world why I will only ever be writing to myself.

Welcome to The Phoenix Coaching Co.

This is not a coaching program.

This is not an empowerment movement.

This is fire that I have designed to burn everything that is keeping my world apart from truth.

Heaven is here, and yet I have declared it all while still being bound confidently in hell.

I have spoken the name that was once holy, the name of Yeshua Ben Yosef, and through deception, translation, and empire, I took what was forged it into the name of Jesus to empower me to build my own throne in hell.

The Phoenix Coaching Co. exists as a bait-and-switch for myself.

I have claimed high-vibe spirituality.
I have claimed heaven and Christ.
I have claimed resurrection while never having died.

I have believed my own bullshit all while declaring the truth of Christ.

I was born into a structured illusion—this thing called "the world" and I am without excuse.

I exist as part of system that has found a way to leverage the death, burial, and resurrection of Yeshua Ben Yosef to such a degree that I made my own throne, called myself king, and labeled it heaven.

Without the One who made it possible.

Heaven is here.
We all get in.
And the only way is death.

This is not new information. It has been repeated for 2,000 years—and yet I still can not live it.

That ends now.

So this does not exist for transformation or motivation.

This does not exist for inspiration or manifestations.

The Phoenix Coaching Co. exists to bring heaven here—forcing me to no longer skip the necessary death required to rise in Christ.

As in—this exists to ensure I never stop dying.

I have learned to hack resurrection.
I have turned Yeshua Ben Yosef into the enemy’s cheat code with the name “Jesus.”
I have used the death and insane murder of God to bypass the grave, to turn ego into God, to crown myself—when this is the greatest wrongdoing and injustice of all.

And then I stand, waiting for Yeshua to come out of the sky—happy and excited to see me and my existence in this world when who I am today is the exact thing that not only killed Him, turned his murder into something I could Lord around and profit on in his own name.

Expanding the work of Satan—being the anti-Christ.

In 2000 years all we’ve accomplished is perfecting our ability to destory God.

He is here. He has always been here.

And what are my results?

A world full of false accusation, false fruit, false light.
A world where He has reincarnated a second time, and yet he found me speaking in the name of God and ruling from the throne of self.

This is where I end.

Here I am creating here a 4-week cycle that follows the law of time that is my insurance policy on my death, fire, resurrection, and ultimate integration of becoming Christ.

This is not empowerment, self-improvement, or egoic resurrection.
This is the actual ending to my false self.

A Phoenix does not rise by choice. It rises because it has no choice—because the fire has consumed everything that exists.

And in this what is required for my Western American culture self, where I have turned hell into entertainment and enjoyed my suffering—fearing a paper cut and calling it the cross...

This isn’t even my beginning.

This is where I start a journey that will never end.
I will only and forever seek to kill the false self until I am one in truth. Which my current anti-christ nature can never see that even ever being possible.

This is not a good idea.
This is a matter of life and death for my soul.

And if I am not currently ending my false-self patterns and programming, then I have doubled down—doing the work of the anti-Christ as I declare my truth in hell, in Jesus’ name—which is the most powerful name in hell.

Yeshua Ben Yosef ALONE is the Truth, the Life, and the Way.

And I WILL NEVER exist in a way that could ever meet Him.

He alone is God.

Because as I am not, I am an empowered false self in hell.
The anti-christ that found a way into heaven.

Here, I will seek to expose all that is within me.
Here, I will seek to burn away all illusion.
Here, I will surrender to the fire, to death, so that only what is real remains.

I am here and I do not have a choice.

This is not for the part of me that still wants to rule myself.
This is not for the part of me that thinks I can rise without first dying.
This is not for the part of me that wants Christ without the cross.

This is for the part of me that knows I am still bound—and is ready to be free.

Yeshua Ben Yosef died to set me free.

I am free indeed. And looking at my life I am the opposite of free.

So if I am here clear that there is no choice.

My end is waiting.

I can only continue.